Alabaster Jar

It’s been a crazy period. Think God really is so amazing.

Around last week I was greatly grief to receive news about what some were saying about me. The reason that it was extremely hurting was that I loved these people. I really never saw them as lower than me in anyway. I felt judged because they didn’t know me and condemned. It was tough and there were lots of voices in my head. I was couldn’t discern clearly which was from God. However I knew that a voice was telling me to ask someone who knows me whether I ever gave an impression that I place myself higher than her. She was a real God sent, she spoke words of life (not just encouragement) and restored joy in me.

That was just the beginning, after being so badly hurt, Jesus then came to me and asked whether I would still love them. My reply was it’s so hard. Then He said, “Through me all things are possible.” It was the start of a deeper dependence on God. Strangely I felt glad to be broken, like the alabaster jar that had to be broken for the fragrance to perfume out. God was now releasing that scent out of me.

Looking about one week from the incident, I can say I’m now in a new level of anointing, but better yet, a deeper level with Jesus. Just today while I was soaking in the presence of the Lord, I saw many visions. However, one vision stood out from the rest. I suddenly saw myself in the backyard of a beautiful house. It was brightly lighted from the sky to the waters. At that moment I felt as if my entire body was in that place for a split of a second. Then I was back again... cool first time I had experience something like this!

The process has not ended, wonder what the next week will be like.