Returning back

On Wednesday I was given the news that I am put out of course due to medical reasons. I fell out too often in the field with symptoms of nausea, giddiness, and sometimes even breathlessness. I also took quite long to recover from it, on one incident, I even had to go through an IV drip to recover. When I received the news I was quite devastated. All that hard work, all the pushing through all gone down the drain. I really wanted to push to be an officer but some how my body just couldn’t keep up with the program. Apparently I may be physically fit but not combat fit.
 As I went back to my bunk, I realized that now that I’m out of course, I had time to do things which I didn’t had before. I really had time to pray and well I was really asking God why this had happen. My goal of being an officer wasn’t for the prestige, or money, not for myself, but it was for the future men I would be able to lead. You see God said that I’ll be like a Daniel or Esther in these days, a position to change. So my mind was set that God had meant that I’ll be an officer and that way many will come to know the Lord, and that the spiritual stronghold in the army may be broken more. But that is what I thought and not His plan. I was relying so much on my strength in OCS, that I hardly spent time with Him any more. Those weekend QTs are not enough. And as I was in His presence I realized how much I have missed. How much I have been caught up on the training and been so unaware of the actual spiritual war going on.

I don’t know how He will use me, but whatever it may be I’ll be glad. Even at this point of time I’m still unsure, but I hear Him say “trust me” and I will. =)
Today, when I returned home, my parents to me of what had happened at the Asian conference. When I was told of what Benny Hinn had prophesied, it was sudden awakening. The thing is, I was prophesying similarly of what Benny Hinn had. The awakening was an understanding how distracted my mind was. I was so focused on being an officer that I forgot a mission I was already on. This “out of course” was God shouting to me to go back into His will.

Singapore be prepared for a movement of God unlike any other – so says one of the many of the generation that God is raising.

How He loves

The Lord has been so wonderful to me.

In the morning, I travelled to FGBMI to accompany Rusty in conducting a prophetic seminar. Though I have heard most the revelations taught there, it was as if the eyes of my heart were opened even wider. I got to understand what the Lord has been trying to tell me.

I got to understand about importance and how to steward the anointing the Holy Spirit has given me. Stewarding comes as we understand things like authority, order, and faithfulness. With the little that is given to us, if we were to steward it properly, then the Lord will give us even more.

“Are you a dancer?” 

“Yes, how do you know?”

“ Well because I saw you in a vision dancing in the summer, and the Lord wants me to tell you that He sees you as beautiful.”

This happened when a saw a lady at the seminar.

Most Churches in Singapore do not understand how much the Holy Spirit loves dancing just as much as music. After all , He did create them. =)

As I look back in the past, I see how much Jesus loves me. Over coffee I told Melena and Jessica how much Jesus has held me so close to Him. In the past I was hasty in ministry, there were many a times where I got frustrated at why doors were not open, why I couldn’t step out into the ministry that God has called me. He loves me so much, gave me the same prophecy at least 3 times, to get my attention. He’s not interest in my working in the ministry but in me. In my days I have seen great men and women who fell due to temptation or because they step out into ministry too early. Jesus treasures me that much that He wants me to be molded that I won’t fall like those before.

He takes care my life and the life all those around. While I was away in the jungle, my “long lost” grandfather discovered he had cancer. My dad shared the gospel to him and he accepted Christ. His third wife commented that she has never seen him so happy before. Today I went to baptize him with the Holy Spirit, and while praying for him, I prophesied “ Jesus says behold I go and prepare a place for you in the heavens.”

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. -1 Corinthians 13: 4-7

How He Loves Us by John Mark Mcmillan

Verse 1:
He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

Pre-Chorus:
And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

Chorus 1:
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.

Verse 2:
We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
So Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss,
And the heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets, 
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When I think about, the way…

Got to know finally!

On Saturday, November 01
I met up with Pastor Woon from FGA. As we were talking the lord spoke through Pastor Woon. He told me not to be too quick and fast, that I’m to slow down. I have not heard that prophecy in a long while, but by the grace of God, He reminded me. 

Later that day I visited Heart of God church. I did so because I wanted to catch up with an old friend “Ben.” In the sermon Pastor How was talking about the culture of his the church and how it was built upon. The thing about heart of God is that you find the people are very pure and that there is no sign of politics among the leaders, there is openness between the member and the leaders. In the sermon he gave the history of the church, which wasn’t built on miracles, but on scars, scars of the death of 2 young youths. At then I finally knew what the walls in the church was crying out about. Scars are there so we can say we walk though the valley of the shadows and emerged victorious, scars to make sure the others won’t have to go through it at all. I have my own set of scars and I am glad for it. I now know why I was to visit that church that day. I shall forever remember the anointing of Heart of God church.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. –James 1: 2-4

On Sunday, November 02
Went to Tiberius church with intend to pray for the sick, but instead I was blessed. Rusty gave the sermon about promises and there I started to regain back all the promises that God gave.

The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may follow all the words of this law. -Deuteronomy 29:29

As I spoke to Rusty, I further understood what the lord had been saying about slowing down. I am to rest, to be still. That’s why I have been hearing Jesus asking me to trust Him all week. I rest now, so that I can know Jesus even more, and God wants to prepare me for the ministry ahead. The ministry of Signs and wonders. He is holding me so tightly and molding me that I will not fall like some before me.

Going off to the Jungle for the next 2 weeks, pray for me peeps. Thanks.