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I remembered around June 2010 I met this missionary couple Ivan and Jane and they talked about how God provided for them and they never charged others for their ministry. Jane prophesied over me regarding a lot of things, however when she saw a vision of a diamond ring she got stuck. However I knew what it meant and the God prompted to help enlighten her. She was more than delighted to know what it meant.

You see at a young age I believed that there was always that one special someone that I would marry. Maybe it was inspired by the song sung by Savage Garden “I knew I loved you before I met you.” For a guy who is a romance dreamer, it really spoke to me. In addition I believe in a God who is a God of impossibilities and so a prayer at a young age form something like, “Lord Jesus, I want my future wife to feel like she is the most special girl in the whole world, I want her to me my first and only girlfriend.”

I think God really honours a sincere prayer especially that of a kid. So it is, I never looked for a girlfriend just for fun and the criteria are hard to meet. It’s currently two criteria, 1. She must be someone whom I fancy, 2. She must be willing to partner with me in ministry meaning when people think of me they think of my wife too, like David and Stephanie Herzog. I mean to me it kind of suck if I go of ministering and enjoying all the adventures while she stays back with all the kids issues and all I could say was, wish you were here. Nah if one suffers with children issues, we suffer together, but more importantly we explore all the adventures together! By suffering I mean all the pooping and the late night crying. It is the number 2 criteria that filter out like almost everyone I meet. It’s strange to me that all my life the girl either meets number 1, or number 2 only. Guess they ain’t the one yet.

Anyway back to the story of the diamond ring. After all the years of waiting, been 23years since now I am 23years old, I still believe she is gonna be someone extremely special. So special that I find no diamond is fit to be placed on her hand. The only ones that I think this is worthy are the ones that literally comes from heaven. Ever since I saw those supernatural diamonds, the ones that jewellers could not put a price on because they claim it’s too perfect, I kept asking God, please would you just give me one, just this one for her, you know how much she means to me.

So the vision that Jane received meant God said agreed to my request. HOORA! Now it’s the patience that I need in trusting God that she is around the corner. Either I have yet to meet her or, I have already known her but I am just too blind to notice. If the latter was so, I so apologise for that, and will and definitely make it up to her eventually.

What ya think? Looks simple yet elegant. Think it would look good on the finger. Other suggestions?

Hope to come

After all this time of solitude I find myself going closer to God in a way I have never been before.I find my old youthful passion for Him being renewed all over again. It’s like falling in love all over again and even deeper this time.  But this is just the beginning of something more. 

Think today God came me just a glimpse of a distant future. Waves of purple lights shone, and glory falling all over. The Saint’s movement going even greater, lovers of God rising up with pure heart and displaying the Lord’s favour in their lives. One final spectacular display before the coming of the final day of days. I saw myself in standing on a cliff with my hands lifted high with many others along side. With an awesome view the view of the valley and a beautiful sun shine on the others and I, it was as if a generation passing the baton to an even larger multitude of new generation of mighty men and women of God. That’s about all to be said for now.

A few days before, the devil had been tempting me to fall back to lukewarm apathetic Christianity.  With words like “see you life would not all these persecutions if you weren’t that passionate for God” or “you’re still young, it’s not too late live the life of luxury you wanted in the past, back to the time where you get comfort and even religious respect as a leader in a church.”

I am glad that I rejected all of them, it seems like my life is experience more and more freedom and I yield to God. Strange bonded to Christ yet far more freedom than ever. Getting kind of hard to type these down when 2 angels have been dancing beside me, and also getting hit my waves of holy laugher here and there.

I remember back in the days of OCS others comment that I was idealistic, unrealistic, dreamer. I am guilty as charged especially about being a dreamer. The thing is, my dreams keep coming true hahaha! (visions too)  FOR all you out there who feel so worn down in spiritual warfare here’s a passage from Hebrews 10:19 -25

Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, by a new and living way opened for us through the curtain, that is, his body, and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.

It's not so fluffy

Hmm I realised that I have not been blogging for quite awhile, and honestly I was quite in a shock that my friends do read it. This in the past usually served as an encouragement to me and maybe others , but I didn’t expect that may people to read it.

The reason why I had been so silent in the past 2 months is that it has really been a quiet time to seek God and for Him to start digging out certain issues in my life, moving me from glory to glory.

In the past I found it easier to blog because as long as there was a supernatural happening I would blog it down, but these days, it has been so often that I have no idea which to blog.

For theses 2 months I had finally found a place where I was fully accepted for who I am. The leader not only accepts me, but shows true genuine care and concern. Not that he always speak of good things but is willing to correct some of the errors in me.

One such error was the pressure I tend to place on myself when it comes to preaching the gospel. So much so that I could be impatient to God’s movement and make the mistake of jumping into things that are yet at time. I guess that’s why I have not been moving out much these 2 months and resting more in God.

Another thing that God was digging out was the condemnation and false accusations cause by another member in my previous church. Out from this ordeal I have learnt to exercise more discernment, and not to trust that a person is speaking from God just because his heart is sincere and uses holy terms like, “have been praying for a month.”  It was this thing that God started to teach me to look at the spirit behind the words and not the person’s heart only. With that understanding I find myself able to discern which part of the prophecy is from God, and which is not (most of the time haha).

This really comes in handy because my parent’s cell group had members who were prophesying with words that were mostly from themselves and couldn’t tell the difference which is God and which is them. But praise God that those members were able to learn and the cell was an environment of love and not condemnation.  

Recently when a person was prophesying over me commented “wow your life is not a bed of roses.” I truly do agree with him. Thinking back, ever since I started to hear and obey God, life has never been all “fluffy” but in fact was faced with persecutions and rejection. Yet there is still joy in me because I am walking in the will of God. I love doing His work because I love Him. In these hard times it has made me more mature and better equipped for the work of the ministry.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. –James 1: 2-4